Quarter Acre Farm And A Dream

Well, this has been a very well productive, busy no. CRAZY! yes that's it!!! Must be something in the air. My dad's death was just the beginning of the events of our summer. Deaths, illnesses, family here and there, broken bones , brake ins just are some of the events or should I say crazys of this season. We all have been sick. Tara had pneumonia, Gus and Jazzy have an eye infection and Autumne broke her arm. We had this vial thing, well half of those visiting my mom. Hopefully, we are on the up swing. The fun of visiting the hospital has worn off , , , IMAGINE THAT! I think I need to some some positive energy this way.

Tomorrow will come and it will be a new day to do it all over again! LOL

Our trip home to Michigan. It was so nice to see my mom and dad. This is the last time I saw my dad as the man and dad he was to me. Funny, at the time I thought my parents would, rather I hoped they would live forever.

Gerard says, he loved this trip to Michigan in Feb 2007. Tam looked so young beautiful and happy around her Mom and Dad. This was the last time I saw him.

My dad and I had special times that I will always remember: When I was a young teenager I wanted to have fake fingernails so my dad helped me put them on. He had more glue on him and they were all over me. I looked funny, but it was so special I loved that time.

When I was 31 I almost died and they told my family to come because I might not make it through the night. My dad had just gotten out of rehab and came to see me. I never felt so loved in my life to know he would do that.

Jerry and I always have this thing where I have to prove he isn't right so I call my dad to prove him wrong. I would call him to ask about a movie or book and of course Jerry would be right. Having these conversations were so special to me. My dad and his knowledge was so amazing to me. That's why I was attracted to Jerry he's got that knowledge thing going like my dad.

We have a journal Jerry and I and in it we write letters to one another. Today, He wrote: The irises blooming represents the right time.

The Birch tree is in our bedroom. When I was a kid my dad told me that Birch Trees were extinct, and me being the type of person who used to believe everything someone told me believed they really were extinct until I was 30 . I kept seeing all these birch trees and than mentioned to someone they were extinct. Of course they laughed. I love Birch trees it reminds me of a special connection I had with my dad. Of his humor. And of how I believed in my dad even though times were not easy. I know we had a connection. I believed he had so much knowledge. I held on his words just to learn about history, nature, movies and tv and books.

I wanted to know he was around me, this always brings me comfort. When Aaron died I asked him to show me a sign he was around me and I felt him. I asked my dad to show me and I kept seeing him ride his red bike with this smile on his face. I couldn't get the picture out of my mind. Than I talked to my mom and talked to her about it. She told me he's happy! That was his favorite thing to do! I knew than he was around me. We going going to Michigan in June for the memorial and I will bring the bike home.